"I'll stand, with arms high and heart abandoned, in all, of the one who gave it all. "
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Abandonment.
Learning to let go is never a easy thing to come to terms with. Its not that you don't want to let go, its just the simple fact you don't know how to make yourself let go. The cliche line is Let go and Let God, and as cheesy as it sounds, its exactly what I need to do. There are so many things I need to just let go and forget about and let God direct. Feelings that I have need to be abandoned. Hopes and desires of certain things happening, I need to just lay down. Pressures that keep rising up within me, I need to suppress. Sadly, it is so much easier to type out than to actually do. With God though, I know it can be done. And I know once I have let everything go, God will then do something amazing that I can only appreciate once things have changed in my life. My feelings will be directed by Him. My hopes and desires will become His hopes and desires. And those pressures will become small in my eyes, because I know I am not dealing with them alone. I want that. More than anything because I know once God and I get to that point, I will be happier and complete than I have ever been. That will be a life changing experience. I hope it happens soon. I know everything is in His timing, and he is teaching me patience with each step I take. Everything that I am learning and feeling and conquering in Him is shaping me into the Godly woman he wants me to become. The future is exciting and I can not wait to look back and see where God has brought me. I want to be completely abandoned before Him.
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Stacie, you are beautiful and precious.
ReplyDeleteIt is more natural for us to tightly squeeze our grip around so many things in our lives b/c of our need to control and our fear of what will happen if we don't hold tightly to it. This is the struggle of walking out faith and I seem to never learn this lesson enough. I can tell you (and I am sure that you already know this) that the times that I was truly able to let go, that it when God surprised me with the best gifts in life. Like Nathan coming into my life. There were several years where I wondered if I would ever get married or if maybe there was just something wrong with me. I had finally resigned to the idea and was planning on finishing school and then going to Africa. That is when Nathan came into my life and what an incredible gift God gave me. He is the best gift God has ever given me. :) I also look back on those years of being single where I wanted to find that person and wouldn't trade them for the world b/c in them, God became my everything. I don't know what you are dealing with letting go but I know that it isn't easy. Love you Stacie