When nature calls, you must answer.

Last week and this past week, I have encountered quite a few things that has been breathtaking and a step toward something new in my life. I really feel like it is time to take that step toward adulthood, and the things I want. I am tired of being complacent and finally have the passion I need to reach for new goals. Why do I suddenly want to become a new person? I think it is a number of things. #1. I feel like I have been in the same rut for awhile.  Nothing depressing or anything, just unchanging. #2. I see the things I want in life, and I technically know that the only way I will achieve those new things is to fight and work toward them. Sometimes though, it just seems easier to sit and wait for them to come to you, but that will never happen, and you will look back 10 years down the road and every day will look the same. I don't want that anymore. I want newness. I want each day to be a different color. Dark days and bright days. Colorful and Black and White days. Each day brings me to a new experience. #3. New surroundings is a must. I have been surrounded by the same things for awhile. Friends, family, college life etc. Don't get me wrong, I love all of those things and all of those people, but its time for new people and new atmospheres. I will of course, keep those same things because they are loves of mine, but there is room for the unknown. #4. Goals. I have already said this, but ten years down the road, I want to be a completely different person. I want to spiritually grow, mature, grow in relationships, responsibility and become confident in who I am as a person. I will never be confident if I do not show myself the strength that I do have buried underneath fear that keeps trying to take control. 

This year is a year of possibilities and the unknown and when it ends, I want to look back and see where I have come from and see the new beauty I call life.

Now that I have written out the new passion  in my life, I end with the one hour that completely made my day. On tuesdays and thursdays, I get the joy(sarcasm) to awake at 6:30 and arrive at a 8am math class, with biology following after. During biology today, I not only witnessed a 22 yr old male ask to go to the bathroom, but I also heard some wise words from my professor. After looking at him shockingly, I mean we are in college, her answer was just this one line. "When nature calls, you must answer." Not only that, but she also informed us that North Carolina is the only state to have 5 different counties with syphilis counts. You know what that means? North Carolina is full of whores. Kudos to Kasey for making that comment publicly.

"All this feels strange and untrue, And I won't waste a minute without you
My bones ache, my skin feels cold, And I'm getting so tired and so old"