In the end...

Sometimes I feel like the things I do that I think are nice, other people just find completely annoying. Chances are that is not the case at all and its my own self problem. I guess its along the same lines as saying something in your head that you find completely funny, but once its spoken out loud, no one laughs, or smiles. Then you know it was only funny to you and you become self conscious all over again. Thats a pretty awkward experience that I encounter often. Honestly, the whole point is maybe I am way too critical of myself. There are definitely times I criticize myself with my every move, my every word, and the way I act. In fact, I am doing it right posting this blog. There I go being self conscious without realizing I am self conscious. What does that say about me? Well, I guess I am too critical of myself, and I need to stop being so self conscious. Because in the end, it doesn't even matter. And no, I did not mean to just quote Chester from Linkin Park. It just happened. There I go again. This is pointless. It is a never ending cycle that I need to work on ending.

"We see those cigarette advertisements with the rugged cowboy riding around alone on a horse, and we think that is strength, when, really, it is like setting your soul down on a couch and not exercising it. The soul needs to interact with other people to be healthy." - Don Miller.