Angels and Animals.

Have you ever thought that at the beginning of creation, there were too groups designed before God created man? Angels and Animals. Only after God created their impulses, did he create humans with both impulses.

Animal Impulse: Give in and let our cravings rule us

Angel Impulse: Denial of physical and the failure to acknowledge our sexuality is central to what makes us human.

And then we were created. Humans which have both. How we live matters because God made us human. We have both impulses but the ability to make a choice of how we should control those desires.

1 corinthians 6:19 teaches us that we are temples of the holy spirit. (angel)

Society teaches us that we can not control our desires. (animal)

God leaves it up to us to continue the ongoing creation of the world. (human)

If, as humans we are continuing the creation of the world in which we live, then every action and decision effects the whole world and future. So what kind of world are we creating?

taken by chapter 3, Sex God.

And they were all yellow.....

At least once a day, I think of my favorite concert this year. And the winner is, COLDPLAY. It was such an amazing 3 hours. Chillin with my best friends on the lawn, buying my tshirt, watching the drunk people, being five feet away from Chris Martin, and miraculously becoming the owner of their guitar picks...It was an amazing night. But the best part of the night, was when he sat down at the piano and he began playing Yellow. The Yellow balloons were flying everywhere, but the best part was for a moment, everyone was looking in the same direction, the same words. For that moment, we were all connected. Moments of connection are rare these days. Most people spend their time, trying to find connection because of the huge feeling of disconnection we feel towards this earth. Rob Bell asks a great question about being disconnected. "Is this why the first thing newborns do is cry?" Because they are immediately aware of the state of disconnection. And from their first cry, they begin fighting for connection. Our lives are not meant to be like this. Ephesians 4:6 talks about all of us having the same master, one faith, one baptism, one God and Father of all, who rules over us all, works through us all, and is present in us all. To me, thats a connection. Thats the connection we are all meant to have. Its supposed to be a natural state. But because of sin entering into the world, that connection was broken because Adam and Eve chose a different way. This wedge formed. How do we make the wedge disappear? How do we form that connection? Rob Bell puts in pretty simple terms. "We cannot be connected with God until we are at peace with who we are. If we cannot come to terms with ourselves and the life we have been given, we can never accept and connect with others. Until we are at peace with God and those around us, we will continue to struggle with our roles on this planet." Basically we have to accept who we are. We have to really pursue Gods heart and connect with Him. Then we can connect with others and disconnection will decrease. So the question is , How do we make us love ourselves?

A new humanity.

For my birthday, one of my good friends blessed me with the book Sex God. I had been wanting to read it for awhile, but had just not gotten around to visiting the bookstore and making the purchase myself. I suppose God and my friend decided I needed to read it now. So I started chapter one tonight. Its weird when I read a book. A book like this anyway. I analyze every word and will read one paragraph that sticks out to me, over and over again until I can pick it apart. Nerd? Ok. Im fine with it. Anyway, chapter one focuses in on humanity and how in reality, God made us alike. We are all humans. Thanks to the society in which we live in however, we are all divided into different groups. Not as individuals but as groups. Groups according to our income, ethnicity, family, location, outward appearance etc. But there are small moments when all of that strips away and you are just left with a human. A person who lives and breathes and chances are, they tie their shoe with the bunny ears just like you and me. When it comes down to the core of who created us, we are all the same. God created each and everyone of us. And the book has a quote which I love that says, "How you treat the creation reflects how you feel about the creator." How is it, that we can claim to be a christian, and love Jesus, and yet we walk on the other side of the street not to make eye contact with the homeless man begging for change? We are no better than him. That could be us sitting on that curb. The same God created us both. How is that reflecting how we truly feel about our creator? Deep down, is that how you feel about your creator? That he made a few mess ups but you are his masterpiece. Guess what? That beggar is his masterpiece too. He created us the same. I read that paragraph over and over again and tears just formed because I myself have treated Gods creation terribly. And when that happens to his creation, it happens to Him. He is torn down and belittled. And not have I done that toward others to gain in insecurities, but I have done it to myself. I have torn myself down and in doing so, its the same as letting God know that I don't appreciate his creativity in me. And I don't want that to reflect how I feel about my creator. I don't want to tear my Creator down. I want to reflect love and acceptance and gratitude and servitude and show his creation to others and let them know they are created special too. Created as humans. We are not of this world and its time to stand up and start reflecting the divine spark that God has placed in each and everyone of us, and start being the creation he intended us to be. Its time to work for the new humanity.

pg. 29. "With every

decision

conversation

gesture

comment

action and

attitude

we are inviting heaven or hell to earth."

This is it..

Today I am 20.

10 yrs til 30.

blah.

And another one down....engaged....this whole year of friends you graduated with getting engaged and having babies is starting to get the worst of me...seriously.

well...

Are there any good guys out there? Im really beginning to wonder that.

DMB.

Lying in the park on a beautiful day

Sunshine in the grass, and the children play

Siren’s passing, fire engine red

Someone’s house is burning down on a day like this

The evening comes and we’re hanging out

On the front step and a car rolls by with the windows rolled down

And that war song is playing, “why can’t we be friends?”

Someone is screaming and crying in the apartment upstairs

Funny the way it is, if you think about it

Somebody’s going hungry and someone else is eating out

Funny the way it is, not right or wrong

Somebody’s heart is broken and it becomes your favorite song

The way your mouth feels in your lovers kiss

Like a pretty bird on a breeze or water to a fish

A bomb blast brings a building crashing to the floor

You hear the laughter while the children play war

Funny the way it is, if you think about it

One kid walks 10 miles to school, another’s dropping out

Funny the way it is, not right or wrong

On a soldier’s last breath his baby’s being born

Standing on a bridge, watch the water passing under me

It must’ve been much harder when there was no bridge just water

Now the world is small, remember how it used to be

With mountains and oceans and winters and rivers and stars

Watch the sky, the jet planes, so far out of my reach

Is there someone up there looking down on me?

Boy chase a bird, so close but every time

He’ll never catch her, but he can’t stop trying

Dream Like New York.

What would it be like to live a completely different life? A different dream...A different mindset..A different lifestyle..A different career choice...A different location...Maybe I would enjoy that life better. There is only one life to live right? Maybe changes should be made so that I can look back one day and not regret that I didn't do this and I never accomplished that. Instead I want to remember all the things I did do. The people I met. The places I lived. The lifestyle that I had. The dreams that came true. Basically I can be a Concord. Or I can be a New York City.

And dream like New York

As high as the skyline

Aim for the stars above those city lights

I want to dream like New York

I’m running down Broadway

I got to catch the next train

I’m making my way

random thought.

Every so often, I get reminded that I have such a long journey before becoming the person I desire to be. I want to reach one more step, experience one more thing, meet one more person, do one more thing I thought was impossible. I am beginning to wonder though, will I ever reach the point in which I am complete with who I am as a person? Or will I always continue to want to change this and tweak that?

hmmm.....

Sometimes I think I could talk and talk and talk and talk...and the people sitting in front of me would not hear a sound.....The question is.....should I really care? Should it bother me? Or should I just pretend that I never notice.

Who am I kidding....

Obviously....

I love my life when living in Maryland....