lesson worth learning.

If worship has become a production, you need to step back. Worship should be a lifestyle, not a look at me event. I hope I never become a person like that. I would rather worship at a back of a room where I cannot be seen, than to be watched and critiqued. Plus, everything done should be a form of worship, not just when the mics are turned on, lights are dim and the drums kick in. If your heart is not in it, your worship just turned into a big sketch of fail.

imma preachin.

"Don't excite love, don't stir it up, Until the time is ripe- and you're ready." - Song of Solomon 2:7.

Lately, every where I turn, I see great relationships, drama and breaking hearts and my eyes have really been opened. Even though it is hard for me to believe, I have friends all around me, my age, who are married and a couple even have babies on the way. Crazy, but times are a changin. And they are happy and I am happy for them.

And then I see others, who want what they have so badly, that the drama they create, only hurts themselves in the end. Physically, Emotionally, and most importantly, Spiritually. I wish I could shake a few and let them know, its not worthing living life with "what if" continuously. Live life and when your soul mate finds you, great! Until then, stop trying to make it happen. Stop dwelling on him waking up one day. Chances are, he's not. Not because I say so, but because the bible says so. What has happened to letting God place the right person into your life before you claim you love him and can not live without him? Stop envying what others have, and enjoy what God has given you. Only then, will you truly enjoy the gift of a soulmate when God feels it is the right time.

Lastly, I see the ones who dramatically obsess to the point, they completely break their hearts, because instead of letting God hold the key to their heart, they have taken it upon themselves to try every last lock until it fits. Why not let the key designer show you which lock matches? Instead, each wrong lock is placing another fracture upon the heart, and tiny pieces can only hold on for so long. Its a shame, that instead of being patient and following God, many girls specifically, end up with a fractured heart that only God can mend.

With a little faith, and a whole lot of patience, it is possible for your soulmate to find you. God does all things, and he has designed someone so perfect, that it is worth the wait. At least, that is what I believe. I believe that God has so intricately designed my soul mate and we are specifically created to do great things for Him. I believe he has placed such desires and standards in my heart for my future soul mate because we are made to do outrageous things for Him together. Doing them together will glorify God even more. I believe that is worth the wait and even though human desires never go away, the desire to let God bring my soul mate to me, is much stronger. With more outlooks focusing on God, the result would be less heart breaks. Personally, I have the guarantee that God is guiding him and not only will he be everything I want and more, the love that we have together will be Christ-centered. With that foundation, love will withstand anything.

Phillipians 1:3

"Every time you cross my mind, I break out in exclamation of thanks to God."

It hit me.....

My reason for living = Being Gods messenger.

Just a thought...

"Good Morning!
You're beautiful with God's beauty.
Beautiful inside and out!
God be with you"
Luke 1:27-28


These words are the words the angel spoke to Mary when he told her she would bear Jesus. To be so beautiful, she must have had such a pursuit after God. So much so, God was chasing her to have his one and only son.
When you think of a guy wanting to date you, one of your first short prayers is" Please God, let him see me as beautiful." But how many times do I pray " God please see me as beautiful." I know it sounds cheesy, but honestly. Just because he made me, does not mean that I should not long for his art to still be beautiful in his eyes.
Mary's beauty went one step closer to God. She was full of His beauty. His beauty cannot even compare to our ideas. Beautiful to God has nothing to do with the outward appearance: the hair, weight, acne, etc. He see's the inside. The passion, the longing for his presence. That heart that is pursuing His like Mary's. In Mary he saw the beauty he had first created. The heart beauty.

Im no theologian, but instead of getting overhwhelmed with the way we look and stressed out because we are not the image society sees, we need to remember which beauty really counts. Getting back to the beauty of God is our focus. Like Mary, I need to pursue after God's heart because when Im falling in even more in love with Jesus, that is when my true beauty shines.

Inside out, not Outside in.

great....

It hit me....I am a nerd.

Rambles.

This week shall be lovely and sad all at the same time. It shall be sad because this is the last week I babysit Chandler. For those who didn't know, I have been taking care of Chandler all summer, and let me tell you, we have had some interesting adventures. I know I have had a great summer and I can only hope that I have made an impact in his life and he will remember this summer as a great one too. It hasn't always been easy. He is a huge homebody but I think he came out of his shell after awhile. I don't know what I will do next monday morning when I wake up and not rush to his house, just to fall asleep back on his couch, and hear sesame street in the background, bc we both are snoozing away. Or the random trips to the pool. No more monopoly marathons that last for five hours Or the neverending supply of cheese sticks. I love Michelle for that! Bc, I do love cheese. I have become used to spending everyday with him and starting next week, I think I will feel like a piece of me is missing.

Shortly after one week, I will start back to school, and take more steps to getting my degree and starting a new chapter in my life. I wish I could go ahead and read the book of my life so I can see if I like the way it turns out. That way, if it sucks, I can go ahead and rewrite it. It would be easier to get my degree if I was completely 100 % positive that I wanted to be a teacher. I don't really know anymore. geez.

On a lovelier note, Coldplay is this week and attending one of their concerts is on my list of things to accomplish. It will be grand. I cannot wait. It better not rain.

I think the next 4 months will go by quickly. I am not taking a huge school load this semester because I don't really have too. Im taking what I need.

September is going to be a great month. Labor day weekend, Brandee and I are going to fly up to see Nate and Shauna. It is going to be so great. I love going up there and spending time with them. You never realize how great you got it, until your family members move away. I wish I would have realized that sooner and I would've been at their house all the time when they lived here. They would've had to kick me out. Needless to say, I am super excited about staying up there for a few days, and really happy my best friend is coming with me. We shall have some great adventures, especially Brandee and I flying up LOL...Lord help us in the airport and airplane. I dont either of us has flown anywhere where we were in charge of everything. Lord Jesus. That trip is going to by soo fast!!!

Hopefully through the next 4 months, great surprises will happen. There are many things I am patiently waiting for. God knows what they are and he has them planned. I just need to be patient.

And then before you know it, Christmas will be here!!!!! I do love christmas, spending endless hours with family and home cooking! Christmas Eve services and Christmas plays. Plus I love the cold weather! Scarves and Boots and Sweaters, I cannot wait for you!!!

outrageousness.

I need to do something crazy and outrageous.....right now.