bookworm.

I hate reading a book and then feeling empty when i read the last word. I need closure now.

What a rant...

I want the life of a girl in a book or movie. Where lovely things happen at the most random times and everytime I walk down the street, there is a song playing in the background, with a slight wind blowing through my hair. And I meet my prince charming in a coffee shop when we bump into one another and my coffee spills all over his white vneck tshirt, and he is in fact, a handsome, rich prince from some far away country. And instead of getting mad at me, we stare into each others eyes and sit in the no name coffee shop for hours talking about nothing and everything at the same time. And then it turns out that its his last day in the States and we have to say goodbye. Depressingly, I walk back to my little apartment with floor to ceiling bookcases lining the walls, with original copies of books such as Pride and Prejudice, Little Women, and Anne of Green Gables, that in reality I do not own, and I sit on my comfy plushy couch that sits in the middle of my living room that overlooks my wonderful bay window view, staring into nothing because I know my Prince Charming just walked in and out of my life in 24 hours. What feels like hours, is only minutes and suddenly there is a knock on the door. When I finally answer the door, there stands my Prince Charming leaning against the door frame, breathing heavily because he ran the last million blocks finding my apartment and in fact knocked on every door in my apartment complex until the little old lady that lives below me told him my apartment number, he is wearing the same coffee stained tshirt, explaining how he could not get on the plane in between breaths. I then invite him inside and Ray LaMontagne starts playing slowly in the background..Its a perfect moment. And the next moment you see is a simple classic beach wedding with a few close friends and family, and body guards for him..and we get married and live happily ever after in his no name country where we one day become King and Queen.

Maybe I should write a book and movie instead. Thats the only way this story will come close to ever being true...Or I should just go watch a movie..Like Notting Hill, Cinderella, or Love Actually...

I am such a girl.

Is there?

I really don't know what I want to do with my life....Is there a major for a nursing-photographing-teaching-traveling-singing-writing-acting-CEO-wife-mother?

......I didnt think so.

each day...

Each day, my love for being a mother one day grows deeper. I think it is a big part of my calling in life.

My list.

I want to be Godly.

I want to go somewhere in life.

I want to achieve my dreams.

I want to make goals and keep them.

I want to feel good about what I do.

I want to be artsy.

I want to be classy.

I want to be mysterious.

I want to be lovely.

I want to be desirable.

I want to be understood.

I want to be genuis.

I want to be favored.

I want to be rich.

I want to be original.

I want to be vintage.

I want to be humble.

I want to be skinny.

I want to be invisible.

I want to be timeless.

I want to be heroic.

I want to cure the world.

I want to love everyone.

I want to encourage.

I want to criticize.

I want to give.

I want to take.

I want to experience.

I want to travel.

I want to buy without worry.

I want to make money.

I want to teach.

I want to design.

I want to paint.

I want to help.

I want to act.

I want to sing.

I want to preach.

I want to fly.

I want to run away.

I want to write.

I want to take pictures.

I want to take care of others.

I want to inspire.

I want...

the world.